God is slowly birthing in me ideas and a vision. And I'm realizing that I have to start TRULY and WHOLEHEARTEDLY praying and seeking God about things--more so now, than ever. Here's the vision in the making-its still very rough, but a vision nonetheless.

I want to start a more personal version of Acquire the Fire, something that would help keep the fire, not just acquire it. Possibly even hooking up with that ministry someday, who knows? To setup a "street drama" ministry similar to what Victorious Christian Harvesters (my Mexican ministry) is doing, only worldwide. Taking kids, ages 13-20 all over the world. But I don't want to have random youth groups come. I want relationships. I don't want to fill them up and train them in missions and stuff for a week and then send them on their way. I want to keep up with them, possibly through the Internet. Steven is setting up an amazing net ministry that I would love to either join up with or branch out of. I want to know the kids and pastors I'm working with personally. I don't know how to do it yet, but that will soon come. But my dream of changing the world is becoming more and more tangible every day. Maybe I'll start a ministry of making up human videos, dramas and mimes, videoing them and sending the videos to other ministries for them to learn.

I'm thinking that the first 3-12 months after graduation I'll look into tons of different ministries, find out how to start one, and make up my own. Go to school, graduate and then just GO! Be a young, 21 years old or so, and then just go! Now doesn't that sound nice? It's good to have vision. So much hope for the future and satisfaction with the present.

I went to a youth conference in July 2001. It was really pretty good. Matt Redmond did praise and worship. But, I was having a really hard time staying focused during praise & worship. But then there were testimonies and baptisms. I should have been baptized again. I was baptized when I was 6 or something, but the goal last night was for it to symbolize a new beginning and to launch personal ministry. I should have done it. But anyway, after that they had some ministry time and four people prayed for me. I got the usual, "God has a big plan for your life." But I feel that I got four big things either prophesied or prayed over me. (I can only remember 3, but they're all written in a notebook I now carry with me everywhere). I got prayed for an increase in boldness. To become a better help to people around me--a bigger heart for the hurting, wounded, lost, depressed--a better friend. And the first lady told me that that she felt that writing, poetry, and publishing would somehow be used in my ministry. She couldn't tell me what, when or anything. But that my poetry would be pointed to God and my writings would help and minister to others. Just another interesting piece to my puzzle of life.

It only takes one person to start a revival or revolution. Look throughout history. One teenager started "see you at the pole". Teen mania and Acquire the Fire was started by one guy, Ron Luce, and now his ministry sees thousands of salvations among teens and brings thousands of teenagers on mission trips around the world. Joyce Meyers has a huge worldwide ministry. Marilyn Hickey too. Steven, a kid who lives in S. Carolina that I met in Mexico set his whole high school on fire for God and is now setting up a ministry on the Internet to train youth groups around the country how to do the same. He's just one kid. Well, I'm that "one" for RCA and my youth groups. God showed it to me. If I don't see the fruit while I'm at RCA, then I know that it will shortly follow because I am the one to at least start it. Light the match that will cause the uncontrollable fire. Or be the match rather. And this makes sense too-another piece of my puzzle to life.

What if being the next Martin Luther is your calling? Being that "one" who starts a revolution?